Ramakrishna Birthday kirtan

Mahayogini’s house was the scene of  a lovely kirtan last Saturday celebrating the birthday of Sri Ramakrishna, the Guru Dev of the Universal Independent Asram. While he was still in the body Swami Ambikananda always ensured that these birthday kirtans were particularly joyful occasions, and they continue to be a key event for all the devotees. Saturday  was no exception – the music was lovely, the food fantastic, the hospitality unstinting, and the general vibe entirely delightful.

In addition to the music, bhajans  etc., there  were interesting readings from The Gospel of Sri Ramakrishna and from various books, especially a book-in-preparation by Shiva Shakti. There should also have been a reading of notes from one of Swamiji’s discourses (18 Feb 1986), but this was left behind. By a ‘coincidence’ one of the passages read at the kirtan was from exactly the same time as this discourse, which has been edited to include material omitted from the passage in This My Unknown Life. So here it is now.

‘Water is the liquid form of God, and when vapourized by the sun of knowledge, it becomes subtle and  practically unseen. It’s so fine, but you can feel it. So is the silence of the inner spirit, the garment of the body of love. Through that silence, intuition of expression dispels the confusion and misunderstanding of the devotees gathered together. …So observe silence, which is peace. Observe silence while OM peace is chanted. Think of Ramakrishna and say, “Om Namah Shivaya.” Ramakrishna is your father, Ramakrishna is your mother, Ramakrishna is also Christ.

‘ … I breathe God, I exhale God, I retain breath in  Kumbhaka God, I sleep God, and I belch God. Not only what you eat but what you think, that’s where your subtle consciousness is, your real inner self… That  self in you is unheard, unseen, but  in unison with  the Father Mother God. …God stays in disguise in the world, among his people. He plays hide and seek. God is spirit, it is very difficult to comprehend what we are saying unless you are breathing Spirit.

‘…So live in the world and don’t be affected by what is happening. God is a mystery, and so are his real devotees. He who meditates on the real becomes real. When it touches the real, the unreal is transformed in a shock of reality. Therefore there is transformation  going on; step by step you will reach your goal. When God says “yes” everything comes to pass. With God the impossible becomes possible. He may even yield, not to everyone but He may yield to His true devotees…

‘ …Think of the Master, Sri Ramakrishna, our Guru Dev. He meditated on nothing but the Real. It’s a good tip. The Master was God, we believe, and I hope you still do… What is lacking in us is due to the glass of darkness in front of us,  so we can’t see further. We hear something, we feel it, but we are too short-sighted to go through this to the light. So we need the help of those who have crossed the barriers of space and time, and who are invisibly with us - mystic guides, prophets, sages, seers, or gurus. You must invoke, you must make invocation of the spirit.

‘In the original place God created you in His image, immaculate, pure, Brahman. But now falling here into the free will of this world, you don’t want to know God because there is too much imposition of discipline, laws, hundreds of  things one shouldn’t do. We can’t control our senses, we like our enjoyment, and we ignore reality as it is. Even if God has come we are not very deeply interested to see Him lest He asks something of us, and we are deprived of our pleasures.That goes without saying, for hundreds of years, it’s not just today that you are hearing that. Therefore people are put on test and trial.

‘Those  who are detached and aloof from the world alone are aloof after the destruction of the body, so says Sri Shankaracharya in Vivekachudamani. For them God is at hand. They have no attachment to anything, it is their sport, their sweet will. God Himself sports in the world, so they sport, not in the world but with people. Ordinary people sport together. They kick a ball. But we don’t, we withdraw our game and we sport naturally with you. You become the game, as it is. What is this sport? To win you, and make you likened to your original. We are here to get you ready. If you are not willing (God has given you free will) we send the seed of thought. It may not be today, it may not be tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow, which means one life, another life and another life. But we will get you ready, that’s why we are meeting, that’s the point of it…

‘Listen to the yogi, listen to your preceptor, listen to the voice of reality, the voice of silence, the voice of detachment, listen to the teacher, listen to the one who is detached. And cultivate detachment, for attachment is suffering, it is said. But if you are attached to God attachment to that Reality is of course exempt. So you can suffer from what is happening in the world or you can suffer for God.

‘You may say these things, but you are not there yet, therefore there is a vast difference in the scale. The word is there, but the person is heavier than the word. The mind may attain, for mind is subtle and the soul is God – but the body is pleasure, the body is paying tax for the soul occupying it. Your body is different from the atmic consciousness. Whatever is happening is the speeding of karma. You don’t want to come back again and again, and God wants to liberate you, so suffering also is Him. But He is just and fair, He cannot go by bribery – one minute you call on Him and the next you are indifferent. but God wants words, deeds, and thoughts to tally.

‘… You are suffering, you can’t deny it, you are suffering all the time, not just for a little time, but on and on. Yet your nature is divine, there is a soul in you. What is suffering is the body; the body is paying tax because he is not recognizing someone who is there, occupying, witnessing every single activity and thought.

‘Make a decision. Money won’t help you to travel in the astral sphere. It’s given not for you but for others. We have to love our own people first: first your very own, then your neighbours, then your country, then abroad. But first your very own. …So sing, meditate, and clap hands. Wash away sin. Today you are born in Sri Ramakrishna’s antar jyoti [inner light] consciousness. That is the Indweller. “Know, Arjuna, I dwell in every man.” He has declared it in Bhagavad Gita. It’s not new but you have forgotten it.

‘If you believe in the omnipresence of God, you must do something, my friend. If God is omnipresent, all the time, He must not be denied. He has said, ‘Whatever you do, if possible think of Me. I am everywhere. I watch, I witness the very depth of your thought. But do you heed me?”  When you are in a hurry, when you tangle with the world, God is denied. But Love begs. How God begs His devotees!

‘Meditation is to bring all these scriptures into the library of your spine. God dwells in His word, and the scripture is not different from God. Bring these into your vertebrae. It will be a liniment. Say: OM NAMAH SHIVAYA. This is mystical love, this “Om namah Shivaya”. It must not be done just by individuals but to join all people who have realized God through this greatest mantra which can save the world. So join in your reading and dedicate,”‘Acharya Om namah, Rishi Om namah, Brahmarshi Om namah, Devarshi Om namah, Om Bhu, Om Bhuva, Om Swaha, Om Maha, Om Jana, Om Tapa, Om Satya.”

‘So my bones are scripture, word of God, that’s why without reading you can squeeze the almanac for the  water of consciousness. …  Love is too pure to hurt the beloved. Gospel says, ‘The mind of a worldly man dwells among the three lower planes. With great difficulty he can raise it.”  So we have taken the birthday of God today to describe attachment and continuation and  progressive enlightenment in knowledge, awareness, and bliss. Birth without labour. As you think so you become. The caterpillar becomes a butterfly. I am talking to you as a friend and also as what I have experienced besides the Gospel.

The book is burned, it is thrown in the Ganges, but the word stays, it remains in the bones, in the eyes, in the light of consciousness. Truth is the tapsya [austerity] of this age.  There are many ways to cross the ocean: clapping the hands, beating the drum, through words, through observance of silence, through gazing, without interference. Think of the Mother: “May you and I alone behold Her, letting no one else intrude. In solitude, O mind, enjoy Her…” Let there be no interference between our gaze. Love is the thread that binds the two ends, that holds it. And God pulls it like elastic. India rubber elastic.

‘Another procedure of meditation is to become the antaryami  itself. Identify with the light, the lamp, no body consciousness at all, just light. And this light is offered to Light, that which is Light.  But the spiritual life has to be on a good foundation. The spine, the lower centres, are full of stones, you have to till the soil, remove the stones of the lower mind… God is the doer through subtle inspiration. When inspiration comes you pick it up and harp on it and print it. The real thing is somewhere  else  and the person happens to pick it up and he prints it. The real doer is subtle, it’s spirit, and the spirit waits for the obedience of the second performer – the “I” who pretends to be the doer.

‘You  have to  be an instrument, you have to be calm in your mind when you meditate, calm in your music, self-composed, detached. Then be the receptacle to receive, to receive not only God but angels – automatic writing, talk, vision – someone is giving something to you beyond your capacity. There is a subtle guardian angel, a personal God for him. All these are here incognito .’

New Year renewal

 

Swami Ambikananda liked his devotees to renew their spiritual lives at the start of each year. On 1 January 1996 he visited our house in Lincolnshire, accompanied by Satchitananda. Nearly twelve months had passed since his near fatal heart attack, and he now sounded stronger as he spoke about the recent kirtan at Atmananda’s house in Newbury:  ‘Kirtan is not a joke,’ he told us.  ‘God comes down and watches…’.

Ambikananda had brought a video of the last kirtan which he had edited and expanded. ‘A straightforward sacrifice to start the year,’ he called it. ‘If you want to watch a tape and start the new year that way, it might help you unlock the gate of the year… That’s the main purpose why we have come. I’ve condensed a lot, I have joined together many videos. Watching something from previous time has changed my life just before Christmas, so I have gone very much into Hinduism…

‘We can make a lifelong change with just one word we say to someone … But you have to work for your wages, you can’t bribe. Experience is a grace. We don’t ask for all these things, but by giving myself I get so much unwanted knowledge, even about the body, because of my dedication. But I’m not looking for that…’

Then Ambikananda stressed the greatness of Sri Ramakrishna: ‘It was so good of Guru Dev to tell us that just “one sixteenth” of practice will be enough[1]. God, God, God, what a boon, what a clarification, what a clarified butter you lot have got for the last 25 years! You have got the real clarified butter, so all you have to do with that ghee is pour it and make a homa fire, a sacrifice of your life at the end, the mendicant stage, smear your body and “roam about in great delight”, isn’t it? There’s nothing much we have kept secret. In fact it’s given so blatantly that you don’t even appreciate it.  It all goes like sound and music, but quite a bit is given if you examine. Not everything is put into mantric form that is perfect, but at least it is there more or less, a clue is given. Either you reach the goal or you deviate. If you have no onepointedness you deviate, go back to zero, to earthplane…

‘I have so much faith in what I do. Just trust and believe. …It’s a mysterious place where I live,[2] many things are happening there because I am a worker. But I am detached. Lots of released souls come and show themselves to me in thankfulness. Though I am not Christian I send a prayer to those in purgatory, and a lot benefit. It’s not selfish, not personal. Our place can be big, huge, but it’s all for somebody else. Jesus is always there.’

At the end he referred to his experience at Himlaya Ashram in June 1971, witnessed by several devotees, when he was ‘bouncing’ from lower to higher realms, and ‘saw the Virgin with child, and the Virgin gave me that Hallelujad – that’s her word. She took it and gave it to Quintessence.’

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[1] See  Gospel of Sri Ramakrishna

[2] Glen Lodge

Ramakrishna’s flying carpet

Notes read at Glen lodge retreat, 3 December, from Swamiji’s discourse at Ramkrishna Loka (13 October 1984).

 

This discourse took place at a meeting a week after a wonderful kirtan at Quintessence ashram (Sita Devi’s and Raja Ram’s place) that was mostly about Sri Ramakrishna. Our Guru Dev. The next kirtan, at Gayatri’s home in Wales, initiated a strongly Christian phase, beginning with a tableau of Virgin Mary with St Genevieve at Lourdes (played respectively by Durga Mai and Sri Lakshmi).   So this discourse suggests the end of one era and the beginning of another. Devotees present included Mahayogini, Steve, Julie, Satchidananda, Jai Narain and Mahalakshmi.

‘The flying carpet of Sri Ramakrishna is meditation when the mind flies and the body burns to pieces. When there is no desire of power, then you join quick to the Master, and it’s the Master that flies to you. The devotee makes one flight and the Master makes hundreds of flights, coming down from heaven to earthplane. Otherwise God is hidden inside, under the carpet, inside you. Are you aware of who you are? That’s the greatest realization: Ramana Maharshi’s “Who am I?”[1]

‘The mind flies, the body flies. Then you have to get rid of these flying bodies – causal, astral, mental, dreaming – the five koshas [sheaths]. These bodies are a hindrance, but in some ways they can be a help to progress, like the five pitches of a string. They give the key but are not the instrument. Start playing from these, and you can compose your own song on a high level.

‘Our Master Sri Ramakrishna was a master of harmony, not only in music but also in religion. The harmony of religion was his work. This is God’s work; ordinary beings can talk and talk, but who will listen if they don’t get their power from God? “It is Thou that singest the song, Thou that clappest Thy hands, man only thinks he is the doer.” You must be in that harmony and in that tune.

‘Some of you devotees are far from God. Such devotees are on the beach, or even haven’t reached it yet. They are far from the liquid form of God, the sea of immortality. Now God comes down from on high, and when He drops on the water He becomes like a boat. Didn’t Jesus walk on the water? So the liquid form of God becomes the boat of safety in the ocean of existence.

‘Now the devotees are coming. “Let’s enjoy our life,” they say, and they bring a picnic down to the beach. Some devotees are raw, some are baked,[2] some are so hot they fry their bodies in the hearth of God and give them as prasad to the Lord to partake of their devotion. Such devotees are changed by the touch of God’s presence.

‘Jesus and Sri Ramakrishna sat among their devotees, who ate and drank with them – and now the room becomes electrified, filled with divinity. Everything becomes different; God is manifesting here. So keep the company of the holy for the presence of God, if you want to see God. Keep the company of the real starvers on the beach of immortality.

‘Now, keeping close to this every day we, who were raw, get slowly ripened by the heat of that Sun. We get peace and breadth of vision, of mind. So when you come here we make you up a little bit more, make up your eyes like lotus eyes. The lotus lives in mud but is not contaminated, so lotus eyes, lotus feet, lotus hands.

‘Devotees are like strings of a bass guitar; one of the strings is E – know ye the Lord. A is Atma. D is divine. E is also Mi, Aham Brahmasmi. Four strings: OM TAT SAT OM. All sounds come from OM, so we have to demist ourselves completely in this hidden God, in this light, this self-effulgence.

‘God comes down to earthplane, and as soon as God comes down man starts to cry, seeing God in spiritual experience. Why does he cry? God comes down with the Goddess; the Power of God is the Mother, and Mother sheds tears when Her children come, but not because of pain. Why cry? I can’t explain why – “Some weep, some laugh, some dance for joy … drown me deep in the sea of Thy love.” There is initiation on the throne of immortality. Dance in samadhi.’

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‘You have to have strength – strength of mind is the pivot of the active will. When the will becomes active it acts like a dam to protect the water. This is the water of God’s grace. This water doesn’t give you a cold, it’s not ordinary water. Among holy things it is most holy, among loves it is love supreme.

‘If you don’t change in this birth you will have to go through five births to get all this. So become better than good, become the best. The state after that is the turiya state, beyond good and bad, beyond holy and unholy.

‘God comes down and does us a favour to help us out of this mere maya mesh. He helps us to help ourselves. So man must revere Him. Everything about Him is God, every single action. Even the rubbish of God is still God. The dust of His feet gives salvation and forgiveness. Blessing comes down from the dust of His feet. Wherever He looks is blessed.

‘The mind is like a bird. It can either fly to a certain height or it can just spread its wings and glide. There’s something very special about that state, very beautiful, and if the mind happens upon that state it can play itself a tune. The music of the mind is like a gliding bird then, and any instrument will do, anything that touches on that mind will have a divine tune coming, even if you only have one string, or just a clapping hand. Didn’t Sri Ramakrishna say we should clap our hands and sing, and the birds of sin will fly far away?

 

‘I see with my mental love – there’s a mental body of love, a love that has crystallized in this body and become form – gross, coarse, but really the soul of that is candy, it’s not just ‘treacle tart’[3]. That’s perfect, nothing lower will do. That’s the Neti neti[4] plectrOM of a picky-choosy bliss of Vivekananda.

 

‘Holy company can be very blissful if you get the right man. Sri Ramakrishna wanted to share with his own. People came to him from all walks of life – doctors, barristers, learned men – but he said, “I want my own people to share with, people who can understand what it means.”

‘God has eyes everywhere. When He is in trance He follows the line of his vision and goes to the path of light. That’s why He follows light. Whenever someone is meditating with great love, wherever God is, whatever part of His realm God may be in, Jana or Maha plane, He will come down and disturb the devotee. And not alone but with the Goddess, the family, and the devotees. God is never alone. God seeks His devotees, lives with His devotees. That’s His company.

‘Holy company must be genuine. One should not keep the company of the worldly. If a holy man keeps the company of the unholy, a doubt arises. There are one or two exempts, those who have a mission. But even among the holy in kirtan you can sometimes see how they chit-chat. He who has organized everything can also unorganize it. He who has made people come can make people go.

‘So perhaps it’s better not to have meditation in kirtan. Meditation is positive awareness in God, a state of mind, a stillness and a quietness that fills and overfills until tears come, until hair stands on end in horripilation. This is called IT SELF. IT SELF.  There’s no greater word than this: neither man nor woman but ITSELF. From this thing everything comes. It was always, and ever shall be, Changeless Reality. This is one of the greatest secrets. God likes secrecy, He likes hide-and-seek. You didn’t know there were gems in the sea, you didn’t know that Sri Ramakrishna dwells within you. This hide-and-seek is Mahamaya; so pray to Mahamaya.

‘Coal is kept close to the hearth, close to the glowing embers. Likewise, man must lose his identity as coal and gain the hearth, the blazing glow that which words cannot express. Word becomes vision, vision becomes blurred and loses its “sightedness”. So the devotee has to have a silent eye, he has to swallow his tongue.

‘ “The flight is from alone to alone.” With just a trace of nirvikalpa samadhi, a slight trace before the final mergence. If this divinity is not there  you must bring it in, otherwise it’s the agony of the frog and the snake[5]. There’s no ‘cobra’ in it – the cobra will quickly swallow any frog – there’s no cooperation of Brahman in it. Your kind of cooperation is just a watersnake, not a Kundalini cobra[6].

‘Choose your company, because we will be together again and again. When you are holy you have to keep the company of the holy. Good earth is to be cultivated, and good people cultivate devotion in mind and heart. Indifferent to heat and cold or thirst they carry their own water. And man is like a kind of water – by thinking of God this water can become a little wine-y (as  Jesus turned water into wine). But man drinks too much wine of a worldly kind, he must get back to his everlasting wine.

‘God is in His name. So let there be quick chanting of the Name, essence of divinity. So God “becomes into” the consciousness of the devotees. Then if you’re not ready He hides Himself again. There’s withdrawal, but you get a quick flash. Then it’s back to normal again because you’re not ready in this life. The world of divinity has nothing to do with this world.

‘Opening the curtain of darkness a glimpse of divinity is given – a fragrance of oleander, jasmine, sandal paste – and this in itself stills the mind of the devotee. His mind is stilled in the essence of divinity. He has lost consciousness of the world. The vision of God takes that person and makes him cross the three world-seas – Bhu, Bhuva, Swaha – as if God has come with an aeroplane. “Anytime we’ll have a little charter flight[7], a cheap flight together. Not too too high!” But you feel the essence, you smell the marigold garland. The smell makes you conceive God. You can see. It might be a hallucination, but it’s beyond the world. You have to see for yourself.

  

‘God sends His messengers. Durga Mai has come in the form of one of our devotees. But we are just a tender spring flower in the vast field of God. Nothing has blossomed yet, no one has seen the blossoming here. In the time of ice there will be more: the Ice Lingam [of Amarnath]. But it will also be hard. If you receive a rose you must be careful of the thorn.

‘So those who are initiated are very fortunate. Some are ready; some are very close. There are many ways of diksha – waving the lamp, keeping the virgin wallet in your heart. Don’t let anyone use or abuse it. These are the leaves that will enable you to cross the ocean[8]. God dwells in His name; He works through His devotees. God appears as a shadow in the picture. Think of that picture shadow and meditate on light.

[To Steve:] Put flowers before Sri Ramakrishna’s picture.

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[1] Ramana, the sage of Arunachala, used this repeated question to achieve realization.

[2] like seeds that will not be reborn – GSR

[3] ref GSR

[4] ‘Not this, not this’ – the reductive path of knowledge, jnana.

[5] The watersnake can neither swallow nor disgorge the frog from its mouth. The cobra swallows it at once. GSR

[6] Kundalini is visualized as a snake coiled three times round the Lingam in the Muladhara, basic chakra, in dormant state. Aroused, it rises to the Saharara.

[7] cf (Shirdi ) Sai Charters?

[8] cf. the leaves inscribed with Rama’s name enabled Hanuman to cross the ocean

Amma Amritanandamayi and Ambikananda

Mata Amritanandamayi. Who can describe the impact of Ammachi’s darshan? I suspect it’s private and personal to everyone who receives it, but you can be sure the basis is always unconditional love. That’s the way it felt to me last Tuesday, when I went with Sri Lakshmi to Alexandra Palace on a beautiful blue cloudless autumn morning.

For her yearly visit this time there was a surprising amount of interest from mainstream media – this Telegraph video is quite revealing (http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/religion/8893453/Hugging-saint-shares-her-love-with-Telegraph-reporter-and-30-million-others.html). But why surprising? She has only given her darshan hugs to more than 30 million people, she has only through her devotees housed, fed, educated and saved hundreds of thousands. There hasn’t been a disaster from the 2001 tsunami to the 2011 Fukushima meltdown where the Friends of Amma haven’t been there. She is one of the greatest benefactors in the world.  At last the mainstream media are beginning to notice.

I’ve been going to her sessions for many years but have never quite been able to commit beyond darshan-and-donation. Swami Ambikananda first talked to me about her in 1993, not long after I had visited her (for the third time).

“What did she say about the mind?” he asked me.

“ She said it was very hard to tame the mind.”

“The mind alights everywhere, the mind is a fly [GSR].”

Then he warned about flitting from one teacher to another: “Better to abide some time with one who has one eye – king among blind, it is said. He has gone beyond death, he lives like a dead, nothing affecting. You have to have daya (compassion)– that’s Ammachi’s word, isn’t it?  … I am one but there is variety in me.  Bliss is my pen, you are my ink. Therefore the pen must have a point, the ink must be of different colours. One pen but different inks…”

A year later, in February 1994, Swamiji talked further about Ammachi during a visit to our house with Siva Kali, an old friend and devotee. Siva Kali asked if I had seen Ammachi when she had come to London the previous autumn. I said yes, and how good the kirtan was, and how fully Ammachi participated in the singing, sometimes breaking out in ecstatic cries of ‘Ma!  Ma! Ma! Ma!’.  And I remembered that Swamiji had hinted that she  was an incarnation of Sarada Devi, consort of Sri Ramakrishna – our own Guru Dev.

Siva Kali said she had heard that Ammachi too had said something of the kind to her devotees, not denying that she might be an incarnation of Sarada Devi. And I had recently read that Ammachi had installed at her ashram in Kerala an exact replica of the statue, in the Kali Temple at Dakshineswar, of  the Divine Mother as Bhavatarini which Ramakrishna  had worshipped until she manifested herself to him. To me this definitely suggested an affinity between Ammachi and our own Holy Mother Sarada. 

Swamiji now confirmed: ‘Sarada Devi and these, they do come back again in different form to do what they didn’t do on earthplane…. Time, place, God keeps coming back. Different manifestations, different ways. There are many ways to come, according to time, place and environment. …”

As regards Ammachi’s way of repeating “Ma!”, Swamiji said: “When Ramakrishna went in the boat to  Benares [see GSR], he saw Lord Shiva one side and the Divine Mother Kali on the other whispering ‘Ma! Ma! Ma!’  Shiva was liberating souls, the thread was cut, there was liberation. … And She herself  has done that in the form of an incognito Sarada. She has  said, ‘Ma! Ma! Ma!’ repeatedly, with great love. But what does that mean? She is liberating! I think she is liberating these beings.

“Come and get milk, and dissolve. Didn’t the Mother look at you? The other one will also whisper, but you will not recognize. … God walks among us and is not recognized. There is a state half God, half man, half angel, walking now. It is heart in human form. As long the heart beats, that’s it. …  Some people don’t have love, don’t have understanding, their hearts don’t melt. …But God respects your free will, God doesn’t interfere, he doesn’t force you to love Him. Sarada Devi says, ‘If you are happy with your red toys, go on playing.’ But when the toys are put aside, then ‘Ma! Ma! Ma!’ Then the Ma will bring the milk pudding, saying ‘the child is calling me.’ You have read GSR… You are not a foreigner, but you have got mixed in confusion with the world, work, house, argument between devotees. So get unmixed, become undiluted, and dissolve these external layers of wax, because internally there is really flame of Self, undying flame. So, [use] discrimination, dispassion…

“But we are the most lucky because we are really universal. Behind ourself there is this Mary, there is this Jesus, there is Ramakrishna. They are One God. Through us there is a link… Now is such a mixed up time, so try and eliminate attachment – but it’s not easy. Think of purity before you think of God. … When spirituality is mixed with worldliness, you get a worldly result, you get a mixed-type result. Evil has polluted this world. As for yourself, the conquest of the self is the greatest conquest of all. It’s not easy, but that’s the game. Hinduism tells you it’s a game. Hard? Yes, many lives, even, to attain. … So I’m not saying you will control yourself; you may go mad. But holy men convert that passion into love, it’s called ojas. They bring it to here [indicates his heart] and they experience live samadhi instead of that drip to the navel which is the fire of lust. They burn it, separate it, and go in bliss. …This is the advanced birth which people nowadays need many births to attain. But with bhava, with love, you transcend all this in one birth. Ramakrishna, Vivekananda transcended many births in one. Ammachi is making you eliminate, not illuminate, your births. Ammachi is saying, “No more births, my darling.” She didn’t tell you, but I am telling you as an outsider.”

Later, at the end of the same year of 1994, Swamiji told his devotee Vidya: “Amritanandamayi Ma is the headmistress of the school of your life to erase what is not required. Millions of things are erased in [her] darshan.”

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Follow-up to Glen Lodge kirtan, November 5 2011

I would like to share some of the discourses and memories of  a great holy man, Swami Ambikananda of Mauritius (1934-97), whom I was lucky enough to know for thirty years. This is the first.

From Glen Lodge 31 March, 1997

Following his massive heart attack in 1995, Swamiji’s health was irrecoverably damaged, but he continued to organize kirtans and receive devotees at Glen Lodge. The previous month there had been a kirtan at Madonna’s house in Corfton Rd, London, where a number of his Mauritian relatives were present, including his daughter Virgini. Now at Glen Lodge he was wearing an apron decorated with Mauritian cuisine recipes as he cooked a delicious meal for his guests, Nita, Sada Siva, MahaLakshmi and Jai Narain. The following is a version of his discourse at that time.

These notes were read out at the kirtan given at Glen Lodge last week, November 5th 2011.

God is slow but sure, and He is so bearing. He warns you. He doesn’t let you fall completely down to the bottom. And then there are angels too, to grab the little ones. When you go over the border there’s warning – then there’s work. But the Sun will shine. It’s not all dark every day. People don’t thank the Sun. When it shines they say. ‘Let’s do this, let’s do that,’ but they should think of the Sun, they should thank him.

So much has happened that’s irreparable; but you have to learn by accident, by the fall, or there’s no learning. And when accidents happen, not everyone gets hurt. What was inside is now outside. What was hidden is proclaimed

Ideas drag you up and down. We are slaves of our ideas. A slight temptation becomes a big burden, or a net, like the net a coolie has on his back to hold all the things there. So try and control the mind, the ideas. Whatever you do for your pleasure may later be for your bondage. Anticipation pays; it helps, it gives you room to decide, to clear a space, get a breath of fresh air. Anticipation can save a life.

Some people want things all at once. But it will come, if you give it time. Some people have to have their own nature, their privacy. Love is for the other person, it’s not for you. There’s nothing like your own community. Why always think of yourself? Others are also yourself, in another form, happy, or lonely – it’s yourself, alienated, unknown to you – so don’t render evil for evil. Come, share with joy.

It’s good to be a bit active if you’re not affected. When you go beyond the limit you need correction. I am very Krishnaic; I can kill or I can save. To say ‘I can’t help it’ is inventing a kind of disease for yourself. Then nature takes action, there is justice.

We wouldn’t survive if there was only justice. We’re definitely being overlooked [let off]: there is the grace of the Guru, and the grace of your own mind. You don’t know because you haven’t shuffled the card of divinity in the pack of 52 states of life. So grace is very important. Even revelation is not much good if you don’t understand it. ‘Greater than the vision is the interpretation of the vision.’ Therefore divine life needs explanation from a knower, or one who has been told by the Immortal preceptor. I exist before an action takes place. I am declaring it myself.

Spirituality mixed leads to insanity. But you have to know why something must be done. [Just being told] “Don’t, don’t,” doesn’t help you if you don’t know why. Let the person go through these squares. As Jesus said, ‘I don’t condemn you; go, commit sin no more.’

Every action has a reaction. But when a thought has been curbed, controlled, which a man cannot do yet,  it clears away the cloud and brings the Sun. Nature is the Sun, working for the Father; one blow of the wind, and all the leaves are pushed aside, all the leaves of autumn  are brushed away. Due to power of  control, there’s a spontaneous manifestation without action.

The joy is for you, to present what you have brought. But the Person is everything. He is the picture, the rest is the frame. It’s all built on Prema. Self-corrective, self-adjusted. You appear at our meeting as you are. But all is to be discovered in another life. Slowly, slowly, it will come to be printed. You can’t hide forever. Everything is done hiddenly. Jesus said: “What you did in darkness shall be proclaimed.”

Where is heaven? Where is the kingdom? The kingdom is within you. God takes his time, but if you’re willing, you can untangle the loose rope [of free will], Ramakrishna says. Jesus didn’t explain why He taught us to say, “Lead us not into temptation.” He didn’t explain to the crowd, only to his own people, because if there’s no understanding it gets more confused; if you try to explain something to a child it’s no good.

Explanation is spiritual help and blessing, to reassure the doubters. But you are tepid, unawakened. You have to be the same in every breath, every thought, if possible. Confession helps. People are hypocrites, but they want to be strong.  Beyond man and woman is the Paramount One – pure knowledge and bliss. Through that bliss a man is conscious of the reassurance of that blissful Reality. Then he gets knowledge to reassure him.

Heart, mind, words, action, all these should be straight together. We are trying to express what the supernatural language speaks to the heart. Abide by what we are saying. Try to decipher. It is audible trance. It’s coming out, telling you one or two words that bubble, bubbles of reality. As soon as you go from here it disappears, but here it is crystal clear, Words bubble and drop.

Life blossoms in one birth, but if you’re not careful you can lose even this birth. Do not waste it. It’s a matter of your interest. If you have assistance renewing spiritual life is easy; but depending on yourself is greater than any assistance. You have to have will power, discrimination, self-control. But allowance is given for falling. The closer you are, the greater the temptation.

A man can have love, but without will power it’s a neglected field, it’s a fruit tree that hasn’t been cultivated, the fruit left to drop, abandoned. Will power is a determination, where ‘no’ becomes a virtue, yielding becomes a vice. Will power is another word for capacity to reject. Don’t be distracted, be oblivious of surroundings.

Feeling is very dangerous. You can’t explain your weakness; it takes you over. Feeling has a rite and ritual of first introduction, then possession, then madness, a dangerous malady if you have body-mindedness. These little things are overgrowing us, they are a slow death to the soul. Everything is being chewed up slowly, swallowed, in different ways. When you wake up from this unreality then you realise how much of you has been wasted. So you must get astride the giant. The greater the temptation that comes, the greater the challenge. You have to conquer. The greatest conquest is to master yourself first, not the world.

Ganga keeps the body pure. But once we’re in the water, don’t make a mess in this water.
You have to have experience, or emotion  rules you all your life long; you’re reborn in it; it goes into the subconscious. So, you are put in the forge. You are test-driven. Ramakrishna’s guru was a woman [the bairavi Brahmani]; Vivekananda’s first Western disciple was a woman, Cookie.

All this is due to lack of will power, weakness. If a man has will power he is a god. But you are yourself, however much you project yourself into another person, you are yourself. You identify but, minus the One, you  are that ugly gorilla. If the field isn’t cultivated the yield is minimal. Human beings are the best produce in the world, so we believe in rebirth – next time you catch up in next birth. A strong will is the basis of discrimination.

Be spiritually minded  and you attain everything. God has wanted you to serve humanity in this form. If you love your work and adhere to it, you will get a result. But you have to come to that stage of satiation. Some people are like prophets – we give you a hint.
Chastity, purity, not too much indulgence, moderate in eating, drinking, sleeping. You are an instrument, you must be in harmony. The body is a temple, like it or not. The cleaner it is, the better for the Indweller. Otherwise the body pays tax for the soul to use it.

Do your best. Say, “I don’t know any mantra. I have faith in Thee. Lead me.”

Broaden the heart to the point of having nothing tomorrow. Just live on faith and water. God provides. All failure comes from lack of will power. The actor rehearses, but you have to have this power and guts. You have to repeat, night and day. Your  nature is perfection, so your standard is perfection. All you need is a good jockey with a cotton whip, and a bowl of trifle in the paddock for the horse.

Without practice there is no progress. You don’t have to practice everything; but you have to be practical in reality, honesty, dharma, being yourself without anybody,  with everything in your mind, your thousand whims and fantasies. Truth conquers; otherwise the sorrow overpowers you every day.

You have to be that which is not without experience, knowledge, high consciousness, transcendental bliss. There is a special channel of grace of reassurance positive, to communicate with Truth; the path of clarity, honesty, and cleanliness. And you are the end of the destination. You start here but you are already there. So it transcends space and time.
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